Survey Says!

I should be honest: I didn't cast my ballot as an individual. I tried to "table" out who everyone would vote for and cast my survey as who I thought the majority would vote for, to make it more likely. Also, I teamed up with what I expected the Asterias to personally vote (Penny... Penny... Penny...) since everyone would think Helios to have the majority, but really, Asteria would (as I'd be voting with them), so I could get points that others would get wrong.

I'd also like to note that my survey matched the correct answers on all but one question (Joanna being funniest---my mistake, because that is TOTALLY correct, I brainfarted, although I'm also truly entertained by Christy). I also SHOULD have voted my survey answers for everything, but freaked out, since I didn't see the first question until late, and ended up putting myself "trust for your life" instead of Christy, who I'd truly vouch for in that. If that had caused me to lose the challenge, I'd have beaten myself up over it so much.

Also, for the challenge, I told Penny that I was just repeating Rob's answers to make sure he didn't win (since I was saying all the bad shit about her), but not sure if she believed me. I was actually voting for her regardless, at the beginning, but reinforced by Rob putting it, and then actually convinced myself to start repeating Rob's answers as a viable strategy... until his computer caused him to be out of time every other round. After that, I just tried to wait until the last second to submit, generally matching the second placer unless I was inclined otherwise.

Like I said at TC, this is an immunity win that I ABSOLUTELY wanted because this round is so unpredictable. Penny wants to force a tie, but we don't know what the tiebreaker is, and who might be at risk. Rob can potentially idol our target, meaning one of us are at risk. And even though I'm not expecting it, Penny/Erin can turn on us, also putting us at risk. This is the most relieved that I've been in any post-merge TC, even though this is a critical turning point that could propel us forward, or make everything ten times more difficult.

Last Thoughts

Winning this immunity (and pissing off Erin in the process), and being voted for the "winner" categories has probably made it significantly more difficult for me to advance from here. I still think the jury is going to hate me (because it's always good to expect the worst and hope for the best), and I'd be happy seeing Brian, Erin, or even Christy win. I like Rob, and applaud his willingness to continue and attempt any strategy he can, but his most recent approach has rubbed me the wrong way. I'd certainly vote for him over Penny and Joanna (<3), and maybe even Erin, but it's tough to say more than that.

I'm worried that it's going to cause Erin/Penny to team up with the remaining two Asteria (assuming one of them goes), and Rob leaving is just going to make it more likely for that to happen, which is upsetting. But with Penny at the helm, this vote was out of my control. Even if the girls don't turn next round (which is something that would've been less likely to happen without this challenge, since we'd stand a better chance of convincing them that Asterias were the biggest jury threats), they could turn at F5 instead, and will surely target me over Brian at an all-Helios F4.

In retrospect, it might even be better for me (like Rob said) to have a Helios go home tonight, and deal with the tie next round. If I'd have sold our Penny's plan and told Rob who to play the idol on (assuming he'd believe me), next round might be more interesting. At this point, this decision may come back to haunt me. But putting my trust in Rob and his cronies to keep me around at that mercy (at F10 or F8) would have been even worse, but a tie would be more tolerable.

I also need to worry if Brian will stay loyal to our F3, now that he finds me to be a jury threat, in the eyes of others.

UPDATE

OH SHIT. Good for Christy though! Super props to her! I'm actually sort of glad that she'll still be around... but am super afraid of who she is voting for... oh god I hope it was Penny... if I lose Brian, I am wasted. Thank God I have immunity right now, or I'd be shitting myself.

PENNY JUST EXPOSED THAT TED HAD THE OTHER IDOL. WHAT A STUPID BITCH SHIT. I FUCKING HATE HER. (still gotta love Ted quoting it though, what a cool kid)

I need to SCRAMBLE for the new idol BY MYSELF after this TC. I hope that Erin forgot the list of words I sent her before. I'll stay up all night if I have to. MUST fucking get this for safety. And immunity whore. Anything... anything... I'm falling apart right now. Never has a stream-of-consciousness writing of my been so embarrassing in my confessional. Fucking hell.

Awesome move to the Asterias though. Kudos to them. Depending on the evictee, await my breakdown later this weekend. I'll be busy tonight.