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Do you believe she is making other plans aswell? Ones that don't involve you?
I do believe that Helen is, like, legit closest to me over anyone. However I'm sure she is approaching people in her negotiations saying "Brian thinks that I'm his #2" but it's actually you to like Penny, possibly Ted, and others trying to give them the same impression. But I think she'll want to go to the final three with me because we've been together from the start and she thinks she can beat me. Why betray your original alliance when you're probably perceived better than them? I'm sure she'd sell me out to survive, but I think that Helen's a lot more loyal to me than I am to her and more loyal to me than she is to anyone else. If the vote comes down to her versus, like, Daniel, I would possibly be a surprising switch to make a majority for her to go. It depends on the point too because I need Helen's help for now to make sure Erin/Penny don't get too strong. Although I think she's going to make that worse by continuously disagreeing with them, which I told her. But she has a different philosophy, which I disagree with.
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Are you making ones that don't involve her?
Yes, every single day in my head, I'm making plans that don't involve Helen. I can't possibly implement them yet. There are too many people, too many variables, and thus too many risks. I think that these next two rounds are going to be chaotic-y messes, and I could easily be randomly idoled out. So I'm playing the good guy role to Helen saying things about how I don't want to betray my original alliance with her and Penny to bring Ted in, trying to play up the Helios 4 with Erin/Helen/Penny and am all "Helios to the end!" with the original 5 of us. Am I this loyal guy? Absolutely no way. I was cast as Brian for a reason, and the blindsides are going to come. If not, I'll be idoled out and forgotten to pretty much everyone, and that'll be sad.
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If you were assessing your game play from the outside looking in, how would you grade yourself and what do you think you need to adjust (if anything)?
I'd say B-. That might be a little high. I've said this before, but my presence is invisible and I am playing such a follower role right now that it's crazy. I actually bet you that Erin and Penny are rolling their eyes at half of Helen's comments and also saying things like, "Brian is such a follower of Helen!" to themselves. Obviously I need to kill this perception. I need less people in the game and more free time on my schedule to fix that perception. And then it's just a matter of sending out some test messages to see who relays what back to who, and if I find I can trust someone, I'll confide EVERYTHING in them and set things going in a new direction. Daniel may be that person.