Yeah i knew, Christy had told me.

Actually on your last night i kept thinking how good you were, you guessed a lot of things correctly all by yourself, i even mentioned to Jo that someone might be filling you in.

Ted has a crystal ego, he went after me only because he felt offended cause i dared go after him, but the whole point of my vote was getting him out, i never had any intention of any real alliance with him because i knew he couldn't be trusted.

When i drilled him, i proposed a possible alliance with someone from Helios after the merge, but i left out Brain, and he said he had no problems working with Brian either, basically here was a guy who said he hated everybody at the other tribe, now saying he was willing to work with any of them and that he only had problems with Ken(or Jake i'm not sure which).

He would just claim he's not attracted to you in the morning.

I was ok with him being evasive at first, it was understandable, but once he survived one TC he should have opened up.

As soon as i realised he wasn't going to open up he stopped being useful to me.

I know i overplayed, but form my POV since the merge was a guaranteed thing it was time to start making plans for the post-merge game, Helios came to the merge with a solid plan, while we were all over the place and following Rob's lead.

In my eyes Rob was the muscle not the brains (in the end he was neither), i saw no logic in letting him decide our strategy, but by that point i had to get in line and follow orders or i would have been gone anyway.

Ryan you being that close with Ted was like the nail in the coffin for me. I despised Ted and I knew people didn't want ot take him out so...

It's clear that Shawna and I should have stepped up more because we had good ideas. We were more of followers. icon_shrug

Yeah following Rob was pretty dumb of us

(What's the story with Rob on GTS?)

everyone hates him pretty much

So much discussion in Brenda's blog, I keep thinking shes done my post-game assessment.

"He would just claim he's not attracted to you in the morning. "

No see, I would`ve never complained the next day. I would have told Ted how awesome it was and anyone that found out



"Ryan you being that close with Ted was like the nail in the coffin for me. I despised Ted and I knew people didn't want ot take him out so..."

I wouldn`t say we got close though. It was desperation time for me. If you Ted`s confesh he even said I hadn`t talked much with him. I was just trying to make something happen in my favor to get me off the bottom. I really didn`t throw myself at him until the challenge was thrown(maybe Ted will show up and attest to that or even Brenda). Once the challenge got thrown (which was painfully obv to me) I knew I was in a fucked position. I thought you Christy and Rob were all in on that so I had to try something, and I didn`t think you and Christy would work with me on it at all obv. I coulda hopped on the Jeanne train and maybe made it through that TC but I didn`t see it getting me much farther. I would`ve worked with Dan at that point too but, he worried me bc I never heard his name brought up only mine(through others) and Jeanne. I thought if people aren`t saying Dan it was for a reason so I can`t say much to him either.

Thats why I said your social game was so great Jo bc even though I thought you were in on it I didn`t blame you as much in my mind and would have still went out of my way to make things right with you. Which speaks to your awesomeness bc we didn`t even chat that much but I liked chatting with you when I did and thought you were the most real.

Christy had just scapegoated me fantastically to that point on idol/clues. But the real key was Shawna I`m convinced that if she would`ve agreed Dan would`ve been gone(I may be wrong). But I didn`t realize Shawna was with Christy a little too. Honestly I wish I`d have talked to Shawna more earlier as well as my last night on the beach. I wish I had sold her harder on Rob Christy Jo as a 3some and gave her more to think about.

And Shawna I seriously want to cash in on this promise now.

"If no one goes for the hint you can come to me for a lapdance reward afterwards "

Did any of you believe me when I said I didn`t take them or thought I did?

I`m really Helen^

Well... Rob screwed that for you...I'm beginning to see a pattern here... (you do know i'm not a girl IRL right?)

I was divided between you and Dan, but again it was Rob, but Christy is also to blame for that, but i don' think it hurt us that much in the end. Hats off to Helen for figuring out a way out of the clue taking dilemma.

And Penny if you read this you're so much better at reading Jurys than Helen, for some reason she thought i was against her when i wasn't, but you had no problem figuring out i came into the FTC against you but had a 180 turn after the initial arguments.

And I wasn't even that close to Rob so there was no "threesome" the real threesome was Christy/Joanna/Shawna imo