Rob wrote:
Christy wrote:
Rob wrote:
Christy I am so sorry ;_;
you said something like you'll explain in Ponderosa. You may start now
Let's be real here, if I was in the F3 with you and Joanna, I'd have gotten totally destroyed. Probably 0 votes. But if I vote you out and make the F3 with Brian and Penny, then my chance of winning is greater than 0%. Maybe I still lose in that F3 if the jury is bitter enough. But I still at least have a fighting chance. That was the only makeup of the F3 in which I would possibly have a chance to win.
Despite recently discovering that you did not care about me nearly as much as I thought you had, you were still my #1 and one of the greatest allies I've ever had, and if I thought I had even a .01% chance of beating you, I would have happily gone to the finals and lost to you. But it is just not in my nature to essentially forfeit the game by allowing myself to go into a situation in which I don't have a popsicle's chance in hell of winning.
Additionally, although I will admit that I got played by Penny, I thought you were voting for me that night. Penny told me that you told her to vote me off if Helen won immunity, and I believed her even thought you told me she was lying. And the reason I believed her is because you revealed that you didn't trust me and that I wasn't your #1 ally with the whole idol thing. Here's a little tip: if you're gonna try to lie to someone about an idol, try to trust someone other than Joanna with the secret.
I had a suspicion that you or Joanna had the idol based on how she talked about it, and then after you told me and said that you didn't tell me OR Joanna that day, Joanna's acting would earn her a Razzie award because she gave away within pretty much one PM that she had known about it for a while.
So that's pretty much it. It had two factors. I never would have voted for you if I thought I had even a slight chance of winning, and I never would have voted for you if you didn't give me reason to think you would be voting for me. But since both of those things were true, I voted for you.
Now, in retrospect, had I known that voting for you would have totally destroyed both of our games, I never would have done it. I'd rather have gone to the F3 and gotten humiliated by the jury as you won than have neither of us win at all. My mistake was believing that Brian and Penny actually had a mind of their own and were capable of making logical moves.
I don't know if I would've destroyed you, given your reputation as a 'gamer'. But that's not the point. The reason the best chance for all three of us was an Asteria F3, because the three of us played together, and they're basically similar games. If any Helios got in the mix the jury would have to compare two completely different games, and that's not something you want. And I didn't play a better game than you.
And don't get me wrong, I trusted you - but not as much as Jo. A lot of my distrust came when you mutinied back and proposed this whole Helen-plan, because I thought they were bullshitting. Early-merge you were my number one ally, but while you gave me reason to not trust you, Joanna didn't. That's why she knew about the idol (I told her around the time you mutinied).
I understand your reasoning, but I really don't get why you trusted them. F10-F8 rounds were all about 'us trusting Helen->being happy and safe-> they do the exact opposite of what they told us'. And you trusted them all along. Actually the reason you were voted out over me was because you pretty transparently told three different stories for the three of them, and that unified them.
I wouldn't have voted you out in any scenario. Or maybe at the final four. But I was ready to face you in the end. I can't fault you for wanting to win, but damn, you blew that
